So Much for the Afterglow…
Why do people change? I know it’s part of life to change, but what I mean is why do people change completely who they are? From my experiences, people who normally hang out with me do nothing bad. They don’t smoke, drink, or do drugs. But all of those things change when we aren’t as close as we were. They start hanging out with different people and begin doing things that they once said they would never do in their lives. What they don’t understand is, that it kills me to see one of my best friends or ex-boyfriends going done the road to destruction. It hurts. Much more than they could ever understand. Why change for the worst? Why not change for the better? I’ll never understand the need to change the way you are. Especially when it involves doing things that you once vowed to yourself and to friends you would never do.
Inspired by a friend
I have this friend. He may be the saddest person I have ever met or ever will meet. He posts several blogs on myspace.com telling of how everyday that he lives, he wishes he were dead. His reason for wanting out of life? Love. Everyday he feels like he will never be loved or never have someone to love. This kid is only sixteen years old. He doesn’t even know what love is. I tell him time and time again, to give it time, someday you’ll find someone to love who will love you back the same way. Does he ever listen? No. So instead, we hear another story about how he wants to die and how he thinks no one will ever miss him. He has it so wrong though. He has no idea how much hurts me to hear him say these things. I just wish I knew what to do. I wish I knew how to fix his broken heart. But sadly, I cannot because I can hardly fix my own.